Inlaws piss me off

Oh god I am having one of those days today.

My mother in law just wont let up, she keeps on at me. Everything I do today is wrong, or not the "Japanese' way. Just because I live here dosent mean I have to follow all their rules. Does it?

Mother in law keeps telling me that Naoto is meant to have teeth by now but he hasnt got any. Yet. I am sure they will come through though. Why does she care? She is not going to get bitten by him, I will when I breastfeed though as he still loves the breast.

He is only 6 months for gods sake. Why does she worry about that? She also tries to get me to give him powdered milk. I always heard breast is best, but she doesnt think so. I think though if I give him powdered milk that will give her an excuse to take him away from me. Thats what she wants, I know it. Because she thinks I am an unfit mother.

Life sucks. I wish Toshi was at home more. Even when he is on the road he rarely messages me.

Today is one of those days I really want to leave and go home anf forget about this stupid nightmare life.

I dont even know if things wuld be changed if we had our own place becaue I would still be on my own, still be lonely.

Sigh.